August 02, 2005

I'm The Queen... Not a Deb

I crashed a system at work today. I’m not sure what pissed me off more… the fact that the system was so incredibly unstable that my exiting out ‘in a rush’ as the IT guy explained it, crashed it, or the fact it was announced to a group of people that *I* did it. Or perhaps it was the humiliation knowing I had to make sure everyone was logged off so the IT guy could rebuild.

Blech. The whole thing put me in a really crappy mood… of which I was in anyway since I didn’t sleep well the night before. I hung in my cube most of the day… I don’t like to be around people when I’m not feeling like myself.

But… in general, I’m not so social anyway. I know the 10-15 people I used to work with at my old job… and that’s it. I have made no steps to meet anyone new. I don’t feel comfortable meeting new people at work and I know enough people. That sounds so… cold, I guess.

It became a joke today, my lack of meeting new people at work. When it was realized that I had crashed the system, I went around to all those I knew and said, “Log off. I crashed it. We have to rebuild.” Then I came back in and the IT guy said, “Did you tell EVERYONE?” to which I replied, "Only those I know." He gave me garbage and I said, “I don’t KNOW them. I’m NOT going.”

For some reason, he thought this was a riot. And… it would not die. On and on it went about how I’d been there since November and still knew the same handful of guys… until finally someone came up with an idea. They thought I needed a ‘coming out party’… a Debutante ball… to come out to the other employees.

Nice, eh? Did I say I work with mostly men? Yeah. It was the guys giving me hell. I got the “Why do you ONLY know us? Why are you NEVER social?”

And I said to them, “Because… I like the worn in loafer feeling. I don’t like the pinch of new shoes.”

One of them looked at me and said, “Loafers? We’re worn in loafers?”

As I walked out, I said over my shoulder, “Yup. You’re a bunch of loafers. That’s what I like.”

Posted by Boudicca at August 2, 2005 07:39 PM | TrackBack

LOL! I could see you at a Debutante ball. Well, I could see your back as you walked out! GRIN.

And you did mean the shoe, not the activity... right?

Posted by: vw bug at August 3, 2005 06:18 AM

It's a good idea not to be too social at a new job, until you find out who everyone is really like.
So you crashed the system. It probably needed to be rebuilt anyway!

Posted by: Sue at August 3, 2005 08:29 AM

I hate people. Mostly other people.

Posted by: Ogre at August 3, 2005 11:01 AM