April 08, 2006

Woman On Fire

Tomorrow will be spent buying long sleeved t-shirts and purchasing new make up. My rosacea is out of control. In February my face was consumed by it from jaw line to hair line. We think high stress triggered the onslaught. Its better now, but I went to see my doctor about it finally as my eyes are beginning to hurt too, and two things happened at the visit: I’m not longer a once a year dermatologist kind of gal, but a once every 6 months gal and I’m on an anti-biotic for the next FIVE MONTHS.


I actually don’t care that my face looks this way. I truly don’t. They talk about psychological distress in people with rosacea, but I don’t have that. I don’t think about it. Granted, I’m not at the point that some of the pictures show, but I do have all the secondary features from the website I have linked. If I were 16, I think I’d be a mess, but at 40, I couldn’t give a flip. I’ve never been consumed with my looks. I’ve always considered myself, “Very smart and by the way, I’m not ugly.” That’s it. Plus, heavy make up does wonders...

But, my problem is… my face and eyes hurt. They burn all the time. I don’t think that is good. So I am following his orders with a new cream (my old one quit working), a prescription facial scrub, and this anti-biotic that has some potential nasty side effects… just so my face and eyes will quit hurting.

As I type this they both feel like they’re on fire.

The biggest adjustment is I can’t be in the sun. I’ll burn. Or worse. I’m one of those people than can walk by a window and tan. I protect my skin now as I don’t need to get that kind of sun, but on a day to day basis, I don’t normally worry. If I’m taking the boys to the beach or to the pool, I wear SPF as high as I can buy. On a daily basis though? Sunscreen only on my face. I’m a freak about sun on my face.

Overall, however, I get very brown.

Or I did.

So now I’m a freak about protecting my whole body. I have the wide brimmed hat, but now comes the long sleeved t-shirts, and I’m looking for a better sunscreen for under my make up. I’m also changing to a make up that is recommended to women with rosacea. I’ve heard about it too much from women with my skin disorder NOT to try it. So tomorrow it is.

Posted by Boudicca at April 8, 2006 08:52 PM | TrackBack


Hope it gets better really quick!

Posted by: LadyGunn at April 9, 2006 03:34 AM

.. get well soon, Bou... part of having Celt in us is that we've inherited some strange ailments...

Posted by: Eric at April 9, 2006 07:24 AM

At least you won't be cold!

Posted by: Ogre at April 10, 2006 08:58 AM