May 02, 2006

Austin Part I

I’m going to have to break this into a few pieces. I met and got reacquainted with too many people to do one long post.

And I have tales of my own stupidity too, which is of course blog fodder for another post. Let me reiterate, I truly do not like flying.

On Thursday I started to wig out that I was actually going to Austin. I was actually nervous about Saturday, knowing Christina would be there on Friday night. We’d talked on the phone and e-mailed so much, I’d already bonded with her and she was a comfort zone to me.

But I hadn’t exchanged much e-mail or called any other women before, I only knew the guys, and Saturday was starting to make me nervous. I wasn’t sure who was doing what and where, I tend to plan and things were up in the air. The Jawja blogging crew is a freeforall bunch, which is very cool and fun, but can be daunting to someone like me who has to have her schedule shoe horned in order as my life is utter chaos otherwise.

So here I am going to a strange town, I knew in advance the guys I knew were already a tight knit crew, and although I knew they’d look out for me if I needed it, I hated to be an imposition on anyone.

So in my head I had this: Saturday’s plans were up in the air, I was in a strange big city, I didn’t know the women folk (Christina had family plans she had to attend to on Saturday) and I didn’t want to impose on the men folk.

And this was going on in my head and getting worse until I suddenly had a phone call from Tammi and I had a meltdown. And the following conversation ensued to the best of my recollection:

Me: Tammi, I really really REALLY wish you were going. I mean REALLY wish you were going.

Tammi: I know sweetie. But I can’t. But I have a surprise for you. T1G is bringing it. And I promise it didn’t cost me anything.

Me, thinking she is giving me home baked cookies: You didn’t have to anything for me! You know that.

Tammi: I know that sweetie. Now tell me what you’re wearing, because if you feel good about yourself, everything will be fine.

Me: I feel fine about myself. I like my clothes. But it’s not about that. I’m really nervous about this. You’re not going. Mo isn’t going. Christina won’t be there on Saturday. I don’t know the women folk. What if they don’t like me. I don’t want to impose on the menfolk. I am really really nervous about this. And I wish you were going…

This went on for about 5 minutes and finally Tammi said, “Fine! I’m going! OK! That is your surprise! I’m going to be there! Now… T1G is going to kick my butt for telling you. You weren’t supposed to know…”

Heh. But I did. And for the record I started to cry. And suddenly I was very OK with everything. That’s all it took. I just needed one person, a security blanket of sorts.

No, I’m not that co-dependent. It was just everything… the uncertainty of everything that had me wigging out.

And for the record now, most of the menfolk I knew in advance now know this story and have told me that I’m never to feel that way, that I can hang with them and it is NOT an imposition. And I believe them.

And I met all the women folk and I LOVED them and now I have a whole crew of women I know as well… that I feel like I can travel to a strange city and feel comfortable with. No more freaking about blogmeets.

And that… is how it all started.

I have a story about my actual trip, which is a post in itself, but I will start with a round up of just a few and will post every night about it until I get through these great people.

These are in no particular order. I’m just doing them as they come to my head.

Folks, the only person that can make me laugh until I cry is my sister, Mo. Well, until this weekend. And now there appears to be many of them who can because I laughed all weekend, and at one point Tammi says she saw me laughing so hard I was crying.

Actually, I was laughing so hard I was crying and thinking, “Oh no! I cannot pee in this car!”

And so for the first few tonight:

El Capitan of Baboon Pirates- For some reason he is one I did not speak with much. I found most of the time I planted myself somewhere and didn’t move. That whole ‘comfort zone’ thing. Anyway, I was able to speak to him briefly on Saturday night and again on Sunday morning. (Hmmm… that didn’t exactly come out right…) And I will tell you, that the man has the most beautiful eyes that I swear, appear to reach the depths of his soul. He has very soulful eyes. It was a pleasure to talk to him the short time I had and I hope that next go round I have more time.

Leslie of Omnibus is another I didn’t get to spend much time with, but when I did finally meet her on Saturday night, I was struck by how affectionate and sincere she is. I definitely want to sit down and chat with her next time… there is a lot going on in her head and I want to hear it. Plus, I want to hear about her cowboy hat. She was a woman on a mission on Sunday… buying herself a cowboy hat, fitted and all, just for her. I thought that was very very cool.

Marcus of On the Patio I spoke with a bit more, but it was still in short takes. He’s a quiet guy, hanging with the guys smoking a cigar and drinking scotch. I finally got the nerve to talk to him late Saturday afternoon after everyone had been singing and drinking most of the day. They tell me he has ex’s all over Texas and I have to remember to tell him my thoughts on that. Heh. Anyway, he’s a funny guy and I’m glad he was able to figure out that the funky thing Redneck found was a GPS attached to a pole on the patio of the hotel and not really a sex toy for the hotel manager as was originally suspected…

Which brings me to Redneck. I spent the first part of Saturday afternoon hanging out with Redneck on the 6th floor patio, as we all started to get to know each other. I’d met him in Tennessee already and had known he would be the utmost gentleman. And he did not disappoint. Of course I got one hell of an education during our time together, but that’s what blogmeets are about! Now I need to take his advice and teach my 2nd son to be able to switch hit in baseball.

More bloggers tomorrow…

Posted by Boudicca at May 2, 2006 09:51 PM | TrackBack

You have no idea how thrilled to bits I am that you made the trip!!

I so adore you.

Forty years is what you said and I am holding you to them.

; )

Posted by: Christina at May 2, 2006 10:07 PM

H-E-L-L-O...I told you to get them to switch hit. Do I not have any credibility? Doesn't 5 years of being a batgirl give me some weighted opinion? ;-)

Posted by: Morrigan at May 2, 2006 10:19 PM

I'm really sorry I didn't have more time to get to know you, too. You are well loved by the Bad Example family, and now I know why. I PROMISE that next time we'll have a really good natter.

Posted by: Omnibus Driver at May 2, 2006 10:27 PM

I still think it would have been better for you to find out there... ;)

I'm glad that you had such a great time.

Posted by: That 1 Guy at May 2, 2006 10:49 PM're cooler than you think! Quiet? I kept seeing that part, but the ones that knew you said otherwise. Next time....

Posted by: marcus at May 3, 2006 07:29 AM


You were the belle of the ball darlin'. I told you you had nothin' to worry about.......

Posted by: Tammi at May 3, 2006 08:05 AM

Tammi wouldn't let me tell either, and I was kickin myself over emails all morning trying not to tell, then she told . . . silly girl!

I can't wait to laugh with you again!

Posted by: Oddybobo at May 3, 2006 08:28 AM

It's nice to know I wasn't the only one having pre-event jitters.

You = A delight to meet.

Girl, you are one big ball of fire wrapped in a cute, little package.

In short, you rock.

Posted by: TJ at May 3, 2006 09:50 AM

See why TJ is my pea pod, I was gonna say the same thing! Damn if I had known you had the same feelings I did about the whole thing I woulda clung to you like stink on shit!

Maybe it was better that I didn't know! ;)

It was great meeting you!

Posted by: livey at May 3, 2006 10:10 AM

Hehe. Here's a tidbit from my "100 things about me" list. Looks like you nailed that one! Thanks for noticing, and for the compliment!! Next time we'll find a mutual comfort zone and chat for a while!

74. I have blue eyes, and they're probably my best feature. I have people stop me in public to compliment me on them, which weirds me out more than a little.

Posted by: El Capitan at May 3, 2006 11:45 AM

Well done!

Posted by: Zack at June 29, 2006 09:35 AM