January 14, 2008

Running From my Mind

For those of you who have been reading for any length, you will remember that this is a tough time of year for me. This is the time where I wonder, “Can I do this? Can I do this again?”

The stress is overwhelming, just having come off the stress of the holidays and with the normal family and work issues, and I start to feel like I’m coming unhinged, putting on the good face for everyone, that I’m fine, when inside I feel the anxiety growing. Many a deep breath are taken to quell the anxiety.

It’s the big fundraiser for our school. Big lights, big sound, big motion, long hours. The kids have a wonderful time during the three day event, but the preparation and the first day can throw me into a tailspin.

I have two saving graces during the event itself. The first is that my kids truly have a fantastic time… the entire school does and that positive energy of laughing children and happy parents helps to buoy me. The second though, is the great women I work with. We are holed up for three days, coming out every couple hours, as we do our behind the scenes work and the women I work with are absolutely hysterical. This is my fourth year and I’ve truly grown to love those women.

They are my lifeline during this event.

Today in the car I was listening to the radio. My Silent Monday, and I turned the radio on and one of my favorite songs came on. And even though it is a slow song, it is still one I may download to run to.

The urge for a good long run is becoming overwhelming.

Who has never felt this way? An escape… Snow Patrol and Chasing Cars. There is something about this song that brings me peace to my too often unsettled soul.


Posted by Boudicca at January 14, 2008 08:50 PM | TrackBack
Comments

This is ABSOLUTELY my "and breathe" song. I know exactly what you mean......

I just don't have a down day anymore.....

Posted by: Tammi at January 14, 2008 10:27 PM

Great song- I like this band.

Posted by: Morrigan at January 15, 2008 08:56 AM

Great song and good band. I need to send you their 2 albums, you would like them.

Posted by: Sissy at January 15, 2008 09:26 AM