April 19, 2009

What Were You Doing?

Ringo was 6 weeks old.

I was on maternity leave.

I was glued to the TV, watching CNN, nursing him, and crying.

I remember this every mid-April... every detail as if it just happened.

The horror in Oklahoma, the horror in America wondering who would do something so unimaginable, so ghastly.

I've never blogged it before, but I spent that day and the days following, nursing him, holding him, loving him... and crying.

That is what I remember... the big chair I sat in, me and my baby, the tragedy, and my heart breaking wondering what the future held for my child and what monsters lurked among us.

More monsters than we could ever know...

Posted by Boudicca at April 19, 2009 09:17 PM

What happened that day was every bit as unimaginable as was what happened almost six and a half years later. I have a hard time getting my mind around just how naive and foolish we were back then, thinking that our home soil was immune from attack. Oh yeah, we kept hearing "sooner or later", but none of us thought we'd live long enough to see it happen. I do remember thinking that the OKC bombing sounded like domestic terrorism, because all the usual international suspect groups were strangely quiet after the bombing. I thought that if they did it they'd be tripping over themselves claiming responsibility.

Posted by: diamond dave at April 20, 2009 11:25 AM

I lived in Shawnee at the time (about 35 minutes away from downtown OKC) I got up that morning around 9:45, my roommate was watching tv, the news was on (obviously)and the cameras were already onsite...the talking heads were all "...there has been a natural gas explosion downtown at the Murrah Building..." i took one look at the devastation and murmured..."That's no natural gas explosion, that's...oh lord."

Living here, and having to deal with it all, especially in the field i worked in (medical equipment)i obviously had to deal with some of the aftermath. Some of it was difficult...taking oxygen and hospital beds to kids who survived...and older survivors...but mostly i grew callous and somewhat embittered towards the entire emotional overkill the MSM dealt it. Honestly, it was sickening. I once had a conversation with an older survivor who had become a friend through what i did at the time. I expressed my thoughts concerning how it was being handled from the media perspective and she was very understanding and had some of the same thoughts. It was helpful to talk to her, and perhaps her to me. Believe me...i still roll my eyes at words like "warzone, horrific, somber" and the like when these types of things happen. I mean really, when have ANY of those reporters seen a real warzone? I suppose you could say that yes, that was a warzone...then call it what it is...but don't say "it resembles...or it looks like..." or whatever. OK i'll quit...i suppose i'm still a bit cynical and bitter because of it all...sorry for the soapbox...its my perspective having seen it live and in color.

Posted by: The Friendly Neighborhood Piper at April 20, 2009 11:33 AM

We spent all day on the phone trying to get in touch with my hubby's family. They all lived (and continue to live) in OKC.

The memorial there is an amazing place - and all of those empty chairs still make me cry.

Posted by: Richmond at April 20, 2009 01:30 PM

I was visiting my 'old' school (I had quit work after the birth of my daughter, who was 8 months old that April). I had heard it on the radio, and none of the teachers wanted to believe me.

We later went to the site...my kids left small angels on the fence they had there at the time. It was so damn sad.

Posted by: Mrs. Who at April 20, 2009 04:41 PM

I was home with my daughter Martha, who was eleven months old, and I was listening to talk radio. They cut in with a news bulletin.

I was truly horrified. I had gone to college near there and I wondered if any of my classmates had been in the building. I found out later that several had, but all had been miraculously rescued.

I went to the memorial a few years ago and was intensely moved. If you're ever out this way, Bou, you really should make it a point to visit the site. I know it's very emotionally charged, but it's a place you NEED to go.

Posted by: GradualDazzle at April 20, 2009 06:19 PM

Yeah that was terrible and now we have Homeland Security's Janet Napolitano calling our nations hero's (war veterans) probable terrorists, but you won't hear her utter anything about radicalized Islamic terrorists. Now Obama is out doing meet and greets with Hugo Chavez and company. I'm sickened by all this.

Posted by: JihadGene at April 20, 2009 09:27 PM