November 08, 2011


I know this is my happy place... but... I am so upset about what is happening at Penn State, I'm nearly physically sick.

It has nothing to do with Joe Pa, not that I'm horribly disappointed in HIM as a person. It's not about my disgust in him.

It's in my disgust in everyone. Everywhere.

Where... where was everyone's moral compass? All this time... where was that little voice inside them saying, "this is very wrong, this is very bad, this has to be stopped"?

I can't stop talking about it. I'm that upset.

I had something of a much more minor scale happen to me, something I witnessed two months ago, something that I said to someone, "If I don't do something about this, my moral compass will not point North..." And for the last two months, I have been quietly pursuing, righting a wrong.

A wrong that only a handful of us knew was wrong. A wrong that nobody was ever going to find out about. A wrong that *I* knew was there, something single handedly *I* could do NOTHING about, not having the power, but every chance I had... I chipped away to correct it, exploring different avenues, quietly researching who I could confide in that DID have the power.

And it was changed as of last week.

And it was small and it bothered me as if it was a big wrong.

And what we are reading about was a BIG wrong, the biggest wrong of all big wrongs... something so ghastly that it chills one's blood and makes one want to vomit bile... and yet... no one... over all those years... had a moral compass to do the right thing.

No one had that little voice...

I am so sad.

Nearly more sad than angry. To all of them... who should have defended the innocent... and did not... may there be a pox upon them... may they f*cking rot.

Posted by Boudicca at November 8, 2011 10:15 PM


Posted by: AC at November 8, 2011 11:50 PM

And... this whole time, as this was going on, the Catholic Church was having their issue. Never once did the folks at Penn State think... "Hmm, we're doing the same thing. We're being ineffective and allowing this to perpetuate itself?" Never?

Posted by: Bou at November 9, 2011 06:19 AM

THANK YOU!! You put into words better than I could what I've been thinking for a long time . . .

Posted by: Nina at November 9, 2011 07:59 AM

apparently I now reside under your rock. I'll go google it to see what you're talking about.

Posted by: wRitErsbLock at November 9, 2011 09:15 AM

"To all of them... who should have defended the innocent... and did not... may there be a pox upon them."

You're letting them off easy. The perpetrators are bad enough, but there's a special Hot Place for those who knew what was going on and did nothing. Truly sad... and disgusting.

Posted by: Elisson at November 9, 2011 04:17 PM

I found this site, which lays out the facts very clearly. So disturbing, so wrong. Who was watching out for the children?

I am so angry.

Posted by: Mary at November 9, 2011 10:40 PM

1983 grad of Penn State. Joe was wrong to limit the exposure of this crime to the Athletic Director. He and the witness should have been on the phone to the State College Police since anybody knows that University Park Police would have totally failed to notice anything at all and stole the kid's bicycles for not being registered on campus. I'd have called the State Police because I don't trust college town police departments anymore. You probably noticed that from the above. They're like the moralizing bastards that excused all that sexual abuse by priests. I honestly don't understand that one. At all.

That was all evil. Not one single man acted with honor. Rather sad really.

Posted by: Curtis at November 9, 2011 11:25 PM

How can the Penn State students riot in the streets at the firing of Paterno? Dont they realize they are suporting the culture of coruption and cover up? Dont they realize, that it could have been them? I. Dont. Understand.

Posted by: Web at November 10, 2011 07:16 AM

It is unfathomable to me that a person could see what they saw going on in the shower, and not grab the nearest blunt object and beat the living shit out of Jerry Sandusky, until he was unconscious or dead. That is what my moral compass would have told me to do. I would have dealt with the consequences of The Law later, but I always would have known, regardless, that I did what I felt was the right thing.

Posted by: Erica at November 10, 2011 12:09 PM

I haven't been able to say or write much about this because I start crying...hits too damn close to home. That asshole that walked away after witnessing the rape...the others who didn't report it...they are all responsible for what happened to that child(ren). How can they not see that????

Posted by: Mrs. Who at November 10, 2011 02:04 PM

.... I agree with Erica..... absolutely.....

Posted by: Eric at November 11, 2011 07:48 AM

Moral compasses are not something a computer can teach.

Posted by: Lemon Stand at November 11, 2011 05:26 PM

What a way to end an otherwise stellar coaching career. And I once thought that Woody Hayes was the ultimate screwup in that department.

At best, Paterno is only guilty of passing the buck because he couldn't bear the thought of taking down his former assistant and close friend (poor excuse, mind you). Worst case - he was actively involved in the coverup. My real contempt, though, (besides for the perp) is reserved for the now-ex-president of the school, who not only tried to cover everything up but showed an appalling lack of integrity and sympathy for the victims in his public statements. I'd especially like to see him get fried right next to the perp.

Posted by: diamond dave at November 11, 2011 10:17 PM